| "And I was walking in Memphis.." |
[23 Feb 2004|08:44pm] |
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"Walking in Memphis" - Bruce, 'course |
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One of the crummiest feelings in the world - waking up after a frighteningly realistic nightmare and not knowing if whatever happened in it- actually did or not. Man. That's some twisted stuff right there.
I'm still working on my dad and Portugal. Maybe? If I butter him up enough he may go for it, just maybe. How great would that be? Summer in Portugal during the EuroCup! I sincerely couldn't ask for anything more if I got that. I mean, what could surpass that? Being there, maybe even getting to go to a game, meeting legions of fans across Europe!
I could die happy.
The script is coming along, progressively slow, but nonetheless. Aleisha and I are going to have to shape up if we want to finish it by the self-prescribed deadline. It's hard to push yourself on a day to day basis when you can just go have fun, but it's really something we need to become stricter about. I love going out and doing stuff too, but at this rate.. it won't even be nearly finished by summer. It's all pretty much come together already, it's simply dialogue and scene-mapping we're working on now. I suppose we're doing rather well considering we've only had the notion of it for a couple of months, but yeah, we could definitely do a lot better.
Krohn, man, I have reading.. wonderful. It shouldn't be so bad, I suppose, Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. I'd much rather go watch CNN though so I suppose it's a tad bit of a hassle at the moment, that's all.
Oh man! I can't believe I didn't mention this at the very beginning of this entry - Nader is running in the presidential campaign! Isn't that insane? Man, I swear the second he announced there was a resounding thud that went around the world of intellectuals. The Green Party isn't even supporting him, he's blatantly doing it to satisfy his own bloody ego. It's really pathetic, especially considering if it hadn't been for him, Gore would most likely have taken the lead in a few important states over Bush and won the election for good. I just can't believe he'd be so self-satisfying and smarmy.. It's obvious that he'll be taking the extreme voting percentage that would have voted Democrat, and with the election being one of so much dire importance, it's the LAST thing we need right about now- any percentage leaving us.
Can you tell I'm a Democrat? Should have been obvious by now, eh?
I really backed Clark when he was running, he had an appeal that simply couldn't be measured. Kerry, I have mixed feelings about, most likely arising from the fact that Edwards appeals to me so much more. He's brilliant, really - young, charismatic, smart, optomistic, that's exactly what this country needs. He worked hard to get to where he is, he didn't live off of 'Dear Old Dad's Money', and I sincerely feel he's one that can be trusted. He's got personality, I suppose, and reminds me a lot of Clinton in 92. A whole lot. Our country, the world needs a man like this who won't simply list the faults of the nation and who got us to this point (*cough* Kerry), but after detailing it, to say "This is how we're going to fix it."
That's bloody brilliance, isn't it?
All right, I'm off to read about the Congress of Vienna! Watch me get distracted and check out the latest Premiership showings, *sigh*. I'm one of the odd one's that are still pulling for Liverpool, baby.
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| "Do you care if I don't know what to say? Will you sleep tonight? Will you think of me?" |
[30 Dec 2002|03:06pm] |
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"There Is" - Boxcar Racer |
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"I wondered what it would be like. What it would be like to be loved by a man like him. It was never puppy love, but so much more. I wanted to be loved by such a man, such a man that I hold nothing but admiration for. Honestly? I fell in love with the idea of being worthy enough to be loved by a man I so knew I didn't deserve."
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"As a child, alone in my room, I used to stare up at the ceiling when I was supposed to be asleep, and create fairy tales for myself, fantasies within my mind that I could live out every night. It was more than simply an escape, but the sole practice that got me through so many unbearable years. I would create a world for myself in the dark, and be given enough hope through it- to get through the days in between."
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"When I lose faith in everything and everyone, it seemed, I still believed in love. I can't explain why or what possessed me to, but I held on to that belief through the hardest times in my life. My faith in love, the ultimate love that leaves you searching for words to describe it, pulled me through so much."
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| "Give it all away just to have somewhere to go to,Give it all away to have someone to come home to." |
[27 Dec 2002|12:27pm] |
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"My December" - Linkin Park |
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Confidence, when lost, is so very hard to gain back.
You know what I've learned over the past few weeks? I don't take rejection very well (that being the understatement of the year, for that matter). I need to learn that rejection isn't an insult, but a comment that I could do better. That should be my mantra. No, my New Year's resolution... Well, at least I've got that out of the way. I was honestly thinking of my last year's resolution- to give up smoking (though I don't smoke. Long story that doesn't seem quite as comical as it did then.)
Ya know what one of my constant fears is? Not necessarily failing as much as disappointing those who have faith in me. That kills me. I suppose I know I shouldn't worry that much about what others say or think when it comes to my work, but I do. To a certain degree, at least.
Fear, when allowed to overcome, is hard to get rid of.
I let it take over me. I let it take me down. I should have known then what a grand mistake that would be, but I didn't. I was naive, like I have been so many times in the past.
I overcame it though. I overcame the fear and gained back my confidence. And I won't make the same mistake twice. Not again.
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Screenplay notion- whacked family. Brother and sister dealing with whacked family. I like. Think Royal Tennenbaums, but not.
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I wonder, for the first time in a long time, if I believe in the notion of love anymore.
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I've crossed into the world of H/Hr shippers. God save me.
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| "Imagine all the people, living for today..." |
[22 Sep 2002|03:54pm] |
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John Lennon |
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John Lennon kicked ass.
I can't believe I'm getting the workload that I am during my senior year. I thought it would be relatively less compared to my other years (HA.)
Tchaikovsky is incredible.
I need sleep. Chapter 16 took a lot out of me. I feel drained, strangely enough.
I'm also sick. Ha, when something goes wrong, everything follows suit, huh?
I miss talking to Tricia. I never get a chance and I feel bad having to reply toher really long emails with short messages. I hope she doesn't mind too much, though she has every reason to, of course. Gah. Maybe when i get a car next semester I can go see her and stuff won't be as bad as it is now.
I have come to the conclusion that high school sucks, but the idea of college is scary.
Creative Writing kicks ass. Alicia kicks ass. Yeah, we click. It's stellar.
Candice is annoying. Very much so.
I need sleep. Gah.
-A Very Exhausted Sunna Who Has A Crazy Amount of HW
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| "Is she the one to answer my question?" |
[07 Sep 2002|07:57pm] |
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"Stuck Without A Voice" - Hoobastank |
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My thoughts on the D/H ship.
They may come from two seperate worlds, but in the end, they're really not all that different. It's as if God created them simply for the purpose of being for one another. I always compare their bond, their love, to that of Heathcliff and Catherine in Wuthering Heights, and I'll end with two quotes from the book. It's Catherine explaining why she loves Heathcliff, and I think that the words speak volumes about Hermione and Draco both. "...my love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rock beneath-a source of little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I AM Heathcliff-he's always, always in my mind-not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself-but as my own being." and "...he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same" (Bronte).
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| "A little taste of hypocrisy, And I'm left in the Wake of the mistake..." |
[19 May 2002|09:39pm] |
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"With You" - Linkin Park |
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I went shopping for a dress and shoes for almost two hours today and when it was over i realized something that i had somehow forgotten.
I hate to shop, period.
I mean, really. I end up making the sales clerks cranky, for heaven's sake. I mean, the fact that i was shopping for a dress and shoes, two of the hardest items to shop for anyway, might have been a factor, but nonetheless. I think i almost made the guy helping me with dresses cry.
Not the high light of my day, obviously.
I did get this kinda-okay blue dress, i mean, i shouldn't even talk, i don't know enough about dresses to say much, but at least it wasn't too dressy or sparkly like the other ones i saw. It was casual and though it wasn't exactly comfortable, the sales guy said that it looked good on me (though i have a strange suspicion that he was saying that just so i would buy it and leave him to live in peace.)
Now shoes? I think I almost cried when i was trying on shoes. The last time i checked i was between a 9 to a 9 1/2, which i know i have kinda big feet but I'll live. Now, i was trying on these casual leather sandals that my big toe kept creeping out of just a bit when i walked! And that WAS 9 1/2!
Okay, so to make a long story short, i'm now between a 9 1/2 and a 10. Neither fit exactly perfect, but that's not even why I'm kind of upset.
WHEN WILL PUBERTY LEAVE ME ALONE????????
I should have STOPPED growing by now! HELL, my chest SURE DID like 2 years ago and now I'm left with just about NOTHING!
But I'm come to deal with my less than endowed chest.
WHY WON'T MY FEET STOP LIKE MY CHEST?
I'm 16!! I stopped growing ANYWHERE at like 14 or something, WHY WON'T MY FEET GET THIS?
If they grow again, and i mean the least bit, I think I'm going to need some therapy.
Summer's almost here. I'm kinda wavering on summer school's "prestigious attendance" line, but hopefully I'll pull through (God's mercy would have a lot to do with it too.)
I always randomly mention God like that, but when it comes down to it - i don't even know if i believe in Him. I believe that there's something out there, but I mean, that's almost all I'm entirely sure of.
My brother's graduating soon. I have no idea what to get him for a graduation gift. What do people get there brothers anyway when they graduate? A gift certificate?
My dad FINALLY agreed to let me get a camcorder!! Of course, I had to show him the importance of buying it so we could tape my brother's graduation and my sister's graduation from kindergarten, but hey, I'm sure he took into account my "calling" to become a director.
Hmm, i wonder if me and Trish can put together a documentary type of movie this summer :). That'd be incredible!! I'll have to ask her!
I still can't get over the fact that I shopped for a dress and shoes for 2 HOURS! I could have written like 3 chapters in that time!
I wonder if it's normal for women to forget the time when they're shopping. I really don't want to become one of those stereotypical women. I mean, what if i LIKE SHOPPING SOMEDAY!
Lmao. I crack myself up sometimes.
It's Sunday. School tomorrow. Blah. AT LEAST i get to go to Lousiana next weekend, even if it is the weekend before finals. An old friend of mine is getting married so i'm looking forward to that :).
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| "Whatever happened to my lunchbox...." |
[16 May 2002|06:53pm] |
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I have these dreams I'm walking home
home where it used to be
everything is as it was
frozen in front of me
here I stand six feet small
romanticizing years ago
well it's a bittersweet feeling
hearing "Wrapped Around Your Finger" on the radio
and these days
I wish I was six again
oh make me a red cape
I wanna be Superman
oh if only my life was more like 1983
all these things would be more like they were at the start of me
I had it made in 83
thinking about my brother Ben
I miss him everyday
he looks just like his brother John
but on an eighteen month delay
here I stand six feet small
and smiling cause I'm scared as hell
kinda like your life is like a sequel to a movie
where the actors' names have changed
well these days
I wish I was six again
oh make me a red cape
I wanna be Superman
oh if only my life was more like 1983
all these things would be more like they were at the start of me
if my life was more like 1983
plot a course to the source of the purest little part of me
and most my memories have escaped me
or confused themselves with dreams
if heaven's all they want it to be
send your prayers to me care of 1983
you can paint that house a rainbow of colors
rip out the floorboards
and replace the the shutters
but that's my plastic in the dirt
whatever happened to my
whatever happened to my
whatever happened to my
whatever happened to my lunchbox
when came the day when it got
thrown away
don't you think I should have had some say in that decision
if only my life
if only my life
(fades singing if only my life)
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| "When there's no place left to go, Maybe that's when you will know..." |
[11 Apr 2002|05:34pm] |
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"Seein' Red" - Unwritten Law |
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I have a headache.
Nine Inch Nails are not helping.
I'm glad I missed Boykin's outburst. I would have hid behind Becky or something. Angry people scare me.
Angry people who may become violent scare me even more.
I hate when people are mean to my friends. I want to hurt them like they're making others hurt.
Not to mention beat them into a pulp.
I have trouble pretending to like people when I really cannot stand.
Lance is going into space.
Is it bad for me to wish he stays there?
I want to give P. Diddy a hug. I don't even know why.
Usher? Is really cool. I want him to sing at my birthday party? His voice is really nice.
I like Nas. He makes me want to like rap more.
I'm scaring myself.
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| "This is the sound that keeps me awake, My head explodes and my body aches..." |
[17 Feb 2002|05:51pm] |
I'm on a quiz binge.
I love the word Rapture, by the way.
What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty
Trends? Forget it! You want to be a star because of your simple beauty and super-charming personality, not because of your wild style ways. Some may say that you're way too predictable, but you've stuck with the same stuff for years because you know that it makes you look pulled together and pretty. Don't be afraid to let loose, though, by trying out a slightly toned down trend now and then -you could have a blast mixing the old with the new.
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| "Let's fast-forward to a few years later..." |
[15 Feb 2002|10:11pm] |
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"Hnads Clean" - Alanis (it rocks!) |
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Note: This may be written stylishly strange than what I?ve written before but I find it relaxing sometime to talk better English than I would on a usual basis. What can I say ? I?m strange.
I wonder, like I do so much that it has become a hobby of a sort, why the life I would like to live is the one that my family would resent me the most for. Coincidence?
I?ve always been rebellious, many times for no reason at all other than going my own way simply felt more appealing, but yet I cannot blame only that aspect of my nature for the sole reason that my family and I have such opposing views about, quite frankly, the most important issue of my life to this moment.
My parents, older relatives, etc, hold not only a generation between us, but even more so, a lack of understanding or desire to understand each other?s generations. They refuse to acknowledge that times have changed since their days of the traditional thinking. My dad is more liberal in his thoughts than any of my older family, but then of course, he isn?t that liberal either.
They believe that I must follow a straight as an arrow path, not only to go to Heaven, but to prevent them shame in society. Yes, I understand, they?re afraid I will come out to be an embarrassment. Of course, me being who I am, now desire more than ever to do exactly that.
I believe in love, truth, liberty, nonconformity, self-expression, honesty, and all that is pure in my mind. I accept all that is discriminated against because quite frankly, I feel I am one of them. I have not been discriminated on the normal sense of racial, religious, cultural, but more in the sense that I truly do not feel like I belong. I have walked the halls of my high school simply watching those around me and wondering if they realize just how systematic their action, words, attire are. Do they even know who they are? Does it even matter to them?
I think I?ve come to a close-to-final understanding of who I am and what I believe in. With experience and more insight of course, my view will change over time, but the basic foundation and many important aspects of myself are laid down. Something I am truly proud of.
Is liberty worth dying for? Yes, but freedom at this moment, in this place and time, is virtually impossible. The words liberty and freedom should not be tainted with the ?kind? we have in the world today.
Why do so many die in battles and wars and we sit back and do nothing. Israel and Palestine is nothing new to us. In many ways, the cause of their turmoil is our fault so we should be doing much more to ease the conflict than what we have been doing.
Yeah, Ken Lay and his partners are greedy bastards who ruined thousands of peoples? lives, but he did not ?sell his soul.? Come on now, heavy on sensory impression there are we?
We?re already beginning preparatory measures with our Allies against the ?axis of evil.? I predict a WW3 coming up pretty soon. Not only against those 3 countries, but their allies as well. Scary, I just remembered the whole aligning stuff going on in Europe on the onset of WW1. The words, phrases, and actions seem a little too eerily familiar for comfort. Know what I mean?
On a good note, Happy Birthday Brandon Boyd of Incubus. Still can?t believe how young he is?
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| I'm INCUBUS! Stellar... |
[31 Jan 2002|12:07pm] |
You're rock, alternative, techo, and everything in between. You music varies from views on society, love, life, relationships, and emotions. You also like to write fun songs with funky lyrics like, "On this page, you see a little girl giggling at a hippopotamus, I wonder why?" You're like no other band out there, you cannot be compared, your lead singer is hot, and you're definitely unique and fun.
 See what Care Bear you are.
Thanks to Brenda for the carebear one :-).
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| "I don't need you to keep my faith alive.." |
[31 Jan 2002|09:52am] |
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For so long my life's been sewn up tight inside your hold
And it leaves me there without a place to call my own
I know now what shadows can see
There's no point in running 'less you run with me
It's half the distance to the open door
Before you cut me down
Again
Let me introduce you to the end
And I feel the cold wind blowing beneath my wings
It always leads me back to suffering
But I will soar until the wind whips me down
Leaves me beaten on unholy ground again
So tired now of paying my dues
I start out strong but then I always lose
It's half the distance before you leave me behind
It's such a waste of time
CHORUS
'Cause my shackles
You won't be
And my rapture
You won't believe
And deep inside you will bleed for me
So here I slave inside of a broken dream
Forever holding onto splitting seams
So take your piece and leave me alone to die
I don't need you to keep my faith alive
I know now what trouble can be
And why it follows me so easily
It's half the distance through the open door
Before you shut me down
Again
Let me introduce you to the end
CHORUS
Though you know you care
CHORUS
And my laughter
You won't hear
The faster
I disappear
And time will burn your eyes to tears
She's hurt me far too many times. But i always care. Always. I take her back when she's committed unspeakable sins, taken heartless stabs at my soul and all that i am...
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| "Don't tell me, how to be, Cause I like some suffering..." |
[31 Jan 2002|09:38am] |
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I don't think you notice
when you see my face
I guess you're waiting
to spin me around again
Wheels I guess are turning
somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
deeper than you get
But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so
Don't tell me
how to be
'cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
what I need
I'm just fine
here finding me
Me
I've already given
up on getting through
I never question
who I'm talking to
Oh, so much for nothing
but nothing means so much
I know it's touching
but I've been out of touch
And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so
Don't tell me
how to be
'cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
what I need
I'm just fine
here finding me
Me
I don't think you notice
when I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
on somebody else again
Oh, so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more
But you're going off again
when I try to just hold on
But you're going off so
Don't tell me
how to be
'cause I like some suffering
Don't ask me
what I need
I'm just fine
here finding me
Me
Finding me
Me
I never thought friends would be the ones that set out to hurt you.
Discrimination is a lot more rampant than i thought. And it hurts to know the world isn't as pure and as innocent as a place you were brought up to believe.
I love my real friends more than anyone could imagine. You know who you are. And if you're not sure? You're not.
I admire all slash writers.
Fictionlyn's new story is starting on Feb 17! I just found that out so i'm psyched!
My sister was sick today so i got to stay home.
I miss Bush, i'm coming back next year. I love you all.
We need more female rockers like Shirley Manson out there.
I miss Ricki. A lot, but i'm still happy. What he gave me I'll carry in me forever.
I need freedom, I'm a 20 year old stuck in a 16 year old's body.
NEVER CONFORM. It's the curse of our generation.
I'm not content. I'm usually never content UNLESS i'm happy. I'm melancholy and I'm glad i am, because then I can really be happy when i get a reason. When i say I'm melancholy, i don't mean I'm depressed, I'm just here and it's not that bad, I'm happy in my own sense. Just not to the world.
I have to go but hopefully I'll be back soon..
Love always,
Sunna
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| "Just don't forget to think, About me and, I won't forget you..." |
[04 Dec 2001|10:07pm] |
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I felt a little better after thinking about the conversation me and Rick had when class was almost over.
I've reached a conclusion...
He makes me happy. And that's ALL that matters.
So, here's another Blink 182 for ya. One of my FAVORITE songs by them, EVER.
"Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight
I'll put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light
Just don't forget to think
About me and
I won't forget you
I'll write you once
A week she said
Why does it
Feel the same
To fall in love or
Break it up
And if young love
Is just a game
Then I must have
Missed the kick off
Don't depend on if
She ever followed you or
Anything but I'd go
Through hell for you
And I haven't been this
Scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
A bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so
Beautiful to me
I think about the times
Se kissed me after class and
She put up with my friends
I acted like an as*
I ditched my lecture, to
Watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture still
Hanging in her locker?
I haven't been this
Scared in a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your Valentine
A bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody,
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful-"
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| "I'n Your Eyes, I am complete, In Your Eyes, I see the doorway to a thousand churches.." |
[27 Nov 2001|04:30pm] |
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Love, I get so lost, sometimes
Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off in my car
But whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are
All my instincts, they return
And the grand facade, so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
In your eyes
The light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
The resolution of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
The heat I see in your eyes
Love, I don't like to see so much pain
So much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive
And all my instincts, they return
And the grand facade, so soon will burn
Without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
In your eyes
The light the heat
In your eyes
I am complete
In your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
In your eyes
The resolution of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes
I see the light and the heat
In your eyes
Oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
The heat I see in your eyes
In your eyes
In your eyes
In your eyes
He has the most amazingly beautiful, endearing eyes ever.
He was sick today and whispering but his eyes, oh his amazing eyes made my heart melt. I didn't even care if we wouldn't hang together today, i just wanted him to go rest his beautiful eyes and get better.
I'm head over, aren't I?
-Sunna
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| "I'm gonna hold ya 'til your hurt is gone, Be the shoulder that you're leaning on, I'll be standing here, For the next 100 years.." |
[15 Nov 2001|03:48pm] |
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"100 Years" - Bon Jovi |
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"I'm gonna hold ya 'til your hurt is gone
Be the shoulder that you're leaning on
I'll be standing here
For the next 100 years
If the world should end tonight
I'll know it was worth the fight
And we'll be standing here
For the next 100 years.."
So.. How hectic has this week been? :-).
I hated him on Monday. He hung up on me twice.
I loved him on Tuesday. He apologized for his phone being an ass.
Wednesday was nice, Beckerz met him and is clueless to what i see in him. Oy ve, who cares? Oh wow.. That was SUCH a Viv moment (she says "oy ve" all the time and has no clue what it means.")
And today? Today was strangely, eerily, a rollercoaster ride.
Wednesday afternoon i gave him my word that if he signed Viv's card i'd let him shoot (that's what he wanted so it was like "Okay!")
I gave him my word. I couldn't take it back. So i..
Defy principal's orders, forge a letter to get him out of class, hide him practically while in the auditorium, and pretty much promise to take the fall if he's caught.
We had our school dedication today with former President, George Bush, and only juniors were allowed in, ONLY JUNIORS.
He's a sophomore.
So i throw my camera at him because i'm taking notes so he & Lee shoot. WE HAD FRONT ROW! :-). I knew us Newsies were blessed for some matters :-).
But anyway. We didn't get caught. But i got lectured from both of my friends, Viv & Kim about how it wasn't worth risking my position as editor in chief on the newspaper. I could have lost it because of the stunts i pulled today, but they don't understand that i gave him my word.. And i couldn't take it back, i just couldn't.. Even if that means going against everything and doing EXACTLY what i'm not supposed to..
But when they asked if it was worth it? It was. It so, so was.
I think i'm one of the few people that has actually made an effort to do something for him, or fight for him.. At least, that i know of.
And it was really nice :-). We sat next to each other and it was fun making fun of our principal and laughing together and the former Prez's jokes. I would like to add how much i love that man right about now. SO FIERCE. Ahh, love him. Too cool. He's hilarious and really an all-around great guy.
And Ricardo's? Promised me a "surprise" after Thanksgiving Break (next week.) Since he owes me. Big. I wonder what it could be.. I don't know whether to be excited of very, very afraid..
But anyway, that all to the side, today, as hectic as it was, ROCKED. Because of him. ::sigh::
Love,
Sunna
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| "I wanna be bad, You make bad look so good, I've got things on my mind, I never thought I would..." |
[07 Nov 2001|03:26pm] |
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"I wanna be bad (bad)
You make bad look so good
I've got things on my mind
I never thought I would
I, I wanna be bad
You make bad look so good
I'm losing all my cool
I'm about to break the rules
I, I wanna be bad..."
Today was obviously? Stellar.
I got to go to the newsroom during 6th because me and Trish have got a sub in in there for the week (meaning free week.) 6th is when like the BEST part of the staff (other than my period- 1st) is in there. Including Ricardo, i might add. :).
He was so, so very cute. He saw Viv's card and laughed at what i wrote inside, and we talked about everything and anything. I'm worried about his safety though.. I really hope nothing happens with the whole ish going on right about now between bangers and this gang..
And then there was this HORRIBLE photo of me in Pam's stack to go on her page and i was like "oh no, i'll give u another!" and took it away and he and me get in this whole thing of keep away. I HATED him afterward because he kept pestering me about how short i was because i was literally jumping to get the photo from his hand (to no avail i might add..)
He's amazing, really. ::Sigh:: He just makes me so very happy. And you know what usually annoys me but with him i find it endearing because of course i love him? When he interrupts me when i'm talking to someone/discussing something, just to get attention with a pointless, random comment. It's so adorable.
And GUESS WHAT? He's a Yankees fan. He's been one since he was 7. Can you believe that? I just stared at him when he told me. It all started when Viv made him notice my protest black band (around my arm, i'm protesting the World Series, and yes i know i'm a dork.) He was like, "Oh, because the Yanks lost?" And i said, "Yeah, they're so much of a better team than the D backs, i cried my eyes out afterward." And he said, "Me too, it was horrible seeing them lose that way."
I DIED.
At first i didn't believe him but he convinced me and i was just in shock..
I cannot believe it though. How absolutely perfect can one man get??
::sigh::
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| "We head up to the sky then we slide back down..." |
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"We're on this rollercoaster ride
Hold on, I'll stay here by your side
We head up to the sky then we slide back down
Upside down try to figure out
Not sure if we could work it out
I wanna be alone but you feel like home
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
The signals all are flashing red
It doesn't matter what was said
This bed is much too big without me and you
This all seems so ridiculous
Why can't we just get over this
Don't make me say the obvious
Without you
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
I practice all my lies to a telephone while you were sleeping
I practice all my lies to a telephone while you
were sleeping
I practice all my lies to a telephone while you were sleeping
I remember the way you curled your toes
On the side of the stage at all our shows
And the glow on your face just because of one rose
And when I wake up in the morning
and you're wearing my clothes
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
Answer the phone
I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone
and do it again, do it again
Do it again, do it again
and do it again, do it again
I wanna do it again do it again
and do it again, do it again..."
Me being the ditz that i am totally forgot to mention yesterday at the mall :). It was awesome, i had loads of fun though a couple of people canceled (grr), but most of them had told me earlier so it wasn't like i was there waiting for them.
Becky, Trish, Angel, and her boyfriend, Ben, came and it was really cool. We got Becky a cookie cake cause her birthday was on Friday that was in black and blue icing that had a big 17 in the middle with 1 year till your legal around it :). I'm really glad she liked it :).
I CAN'T BELIEVE MC DONALD'S DOESN'T TAKE CREDIT CARDS! GRRRRRR.
I ended up having to eat pizza because of that. Grr. I hadn't seen Beck in a while so that was real nice and it's always nice to hang with Trish (though we've been ending up at the mall a lot, lol.) And Angel, dude, i hadn't seen her since this summer, totally, totally fierce. Love her. So much. And Ben's actually pretty cool. Really nice. I'm glad him and Angel are together, they're cute and so in love.. Ah, i'm so happy for both of them, totally got their back.
We saw K-PAX. SO, SO, SO, SO GOOD. GO SEE IT, if u haven't already. I cried, i laughed, it made me THINK. HELL, i'm still thinking about it :). It was awesome. Ben and Angel snuggled the whole time. Usually that bothers me, but with them? They're the exception. I WANT A WEDDING cause i'll be happy to be a bridesmaid then (got that Angel??)
It was FUNNY, Beckerz DEAD REFUSED to see On The Line.. lol, she can be as stubborn as me. I'm actually glad we didn't see that, i mean, it would have been stupid anyway and i saw a movie TONS better that most movies i'd seen in a while. So overall? It ALL eerily worked out, lol.
Anyway, we (me and Trish) bought Viv this card. It's SO WRONG. Ahh, she'll love it :).
THE SUNSHINE GIRL
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